My brother Jonathan {jsl}

New images from my family project. It's mid February and my thesis project still feels aimless. My problem is that I've included the spectator in my image making process: is it accessible to them? Do they GET IT? I've lost touch with how inherently personal family history is and what my original motivations were. I must ask myself some hard questions and scrutinize my intent to truly gain clarity.

"He could close his eyes and try to believe that all that mattered was that he knew his work was great... and that other artists respected it... and that History would surely record his achievements... but deep down he knew he was lying to himself. I want to be a Name, goddamn it!--at least that, a name, a name on the lips of the museum curators, gallery owners, collectors, patrons, board members, committee members, Culture hostesses, and their attendant intellectuals and journalists and their Time and Newsweek--all right!--even that!--Time and Newsweek--Oh yes! (ask the shades of Jackson Pollock and Mark Rothko!)--even the goddamned journalists!
-Tom Wolfe, The Painted Word, 18.

"Pick me pick me pick me pick me pick me pick me...O damnable Uptown! By all means, deny it if asked!--What one knows, in one's cheating heart, and what one says are two different things!" -Tom Wolfe, The Painted Word, 19.